It's been eight years
Sometimes you revert to the old friends merely for comfort
This time it doesn't feel like a failure
It's actually a good decision
I still feel happy hopeful
I am so close to my degree now
I'd go now if I had the chance
The boys grew up and passed me
They are amazing
Katie astounds me
I'm worried about a friend
The thunder last night did NOT make me sad like I thought it would
I never use any of this in the beginning of new classes when we have to write about ourselves
I still check the woods, every woods, for dead bodies
I miss my Torrent
That's a lot of rain
Upcoming concerts
No plans to travel
I miss Katie
This weekend she will turn 27
Tuesday B will be 17
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I have gone back in time to 2001
I hate repeating myself
I am closer to my sister
I am further from my sister
I hate being so far from my sister
I love my brother more than he'll ever know
I hate the phrase "we didn't have that growing up"
I will never get to give him last year's gift
I hope he gives it to himself. He deserves it.

I feel like I've hit the roller coaster of my life
She blames me for everything
He thanks me for everything
I love them both so much it hurts
I want more
I hate my house
The summer is gone
I still write
Its my sanity...to a T
Football has started
Both are undefeated
Steelers are number 1!!
OSU could do better
The decorations are out
They were better at the old house
Mexico looks like a bust
Its my own fault
I shouldn't have waited
I thought I had more time
I'll never get to travel
I feel bad that I messed it up for Sherri
Her birthday is soon
I sent her card today
I want to cuddle
I finally started guitar lessons
I love it
Katie gave them to me for my birthday

I want a do over raising my daughter
I think I left out a bunch of stuff
I am still VERY proud of her
I still love my house
My future looks much happier
I am so done working on Saturdays
I have to work on Saturdays
I need a second job
I hope the snow is done
I hear its not
I'm looking forward to concerts coming up
I think I'm in love
I don't want to think about it
I definately don't want to say it
There are flowers on the tree outside of my kitchen window
I feel 60% better about myself than I did 1 year ago
I feel 110% better about myself than I did 2 years ago
I am going to my first hockey game today
I have tickets to my first arena football game
I don't like the thought process of 18 year olds
I didn't talk ABOUT her, now I don't want to talk TO her
I like the song playing on the radio
Live-I alone
I saw them in concert
I have a myspace
I put pictures from concerts I've been to on there
I can't remember half of them
I mean recall all the concerts I've been to, not....nevermind..lol
I have reached deep down happiness
Thank you T
I think its all going to be ok
Even if I think of Katie immediately after saying that
Eric is having surgery
Brendan has a new friend
That friend used the phrase, "Well, I see where Brendan gets his good looks" when I met him
They are 8 years old
I am going to a bridal shower
I hate bridal showers
It reminds me of a failure I have
Not that that failure turned out to be a bad thing, but a failure none the less
I got busy at work so I could be out of the office more
Eventually they'll just take all the good parts of my job away
I have a LONG time to go for my degree
That's ok
I'm going to spend some time on my other blog now

I am good at the question game
I make them up quickly
I played it this weekend
I learned some things
I am alone right now
I used to like that
I feel like a "hard" time is coming
I hope to head it off
School started
I'm optomistic
I have ink on my fingertips
It's the coldest today than it has been so far this winter
I hate the cold
I see the connection, thank you
I slept most of today
I am still tired
This weekend was great
I should be posting on the other blog
I promised a little girl in Pittsburgh I would
So I am

I fell, I knew I would, I'm ok with it.
I joined a bunch of writing groups at school.
I'm glad I did.
I hope I don't regret it.
I was given jewelry today.
I love it.
My daughter and I are WAY better.
My mom and I might never be.
My family still doesn't realize how sad they made me.
Someday I'll tell them.
Halloween decorations make me happy.
Christmas decorations make me estatic.
We have record high temperatures for October.
That's fine with me.
Katie is going to solve the poverty problem.
Brendan started football.
Eric yelled "HELLO" into the priests microphone during mass today.
I'm proud of them all.
Work is better...since I'm not there as much anymore.
I'm hooked on diet Mountain dew.
I think diet pop killed my friend.
I still can't listen to most James Taylor songs without crying.
I should be doing laundry.

I am happiest in the summer.
I'm no where near as together as I let on.
I could totally fall, easily.
That scares me to death!
I fell from grace with my family.
I didn't do anything.
My favorite color is yellow.
I am self destructive.
I got another tattoo.
I totally know the last two lines are related.
I wish I could blog more.
I want to be "good" at something.
I've not even come close to finding that something.
My sister lies ALOT.
I've always just disregarded that.
Now it infuriates me that I have.
I'm losing weight.
On purpose.
I'm totally in awe of the abilities of my children.
I don't like my job anywhere near as much anymore.
I am successful at keeping houseplants alive.
I want to get my kids a pet, but I don't like any of my options.
I got super pass-out, have to pull over, apologetic drunk for cinco de mayo
I never park in the garage.
I have lots to blog.
I have no time to blog it.
In the year I've had it, I've taken 700 pictures with my cell.
Maybe it's been two years...
I'm leaving now for a bike ride.

I am already tired and shouldn't have started this.
I am NOT listening to music right now.
I am alone in my house for just about the first time since i moved in.
I like it.
I miss my kids.
I "flushed" like a friend told me i had to.
I bet alot of people feel like I crapped on them.
I finally wanted to be the crapper and not the crapee.
They will never understand this.
I found my breaking point.
I should have years ago.
I think I lost my daughter.
I'm crying thinking about it.
People have great influence on her.
I lost mine.
Eventually she will realize that some things are true no matter what.
I love her, I have always been proud of her
I only started to question when given a reason to.
I fear that her decisions will lead to regrets and tried TOO hard to stop that
this list is not about me any more.
I don't think it needs it to be, I've begun living for me, not writing about how I should be living.